hmm

ok. lets see. i really hav no idea how to write this.

i made a mistake. a huge one. and i know there's no easy way to correct it.
so. i will give it my all. but i wont be too upset if it remains a mistake. cuz at least i hav something to look back on. so i wont make stupid mistakes like this in the future.

also. i dont quite understand. how. why. when. what.
im a lil disappointed.bout the way u react. and how u retaliated. a lil childish in my opinion.

haha. u noe wat. i dont think u even understand the whole story. u hear bits and pieces but do u actually understand. the truth becomes so twisted once its passed along many mouths.

i em. apologise.for the way i reacted too. i think i was a lil too defensive and er.said some stuff dat i now regret.

.............

which is worse.
being backstabbed by a best fren?
or being backstabbed by a person who hates u?

anyway. im bak from johor. trip back took 4 hours. due to jam. if not usually 3 hours only.
my dog so good boy on the way back. =p dint complain or make noise.
seasoned traveller liao. =p

haha. took some pics. but not much. i dont really wan2 bother.
there's a funny one of my bro though.
he doesnt care cuz he says no one reads this blog anyway so he wouldnt care if i put it up here.
huh. mean of him. but im too lazy to put it up here.so either way he wins.

sigh

sick

noooo. im losing my voice!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how can this happen to me. so damn annoyed. first la i have sorethroat fine la. suffer for 2 days.drink lemon and all those nonsense. and den after sorethroat go.

MY VOICE ALSO HAVE TO FOLLOW !?!?!?!

WAT THE...................

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh................

me, sut, chris and aun have signed up for the amazing race chs. =p tee hee.
we like signed up today and everything. and we were like so relaxed cuz we thought we'll sign up after cny only.

den i go bak class ask qm vice pres if the early bird offer still in, den she say yes wor...so me..being kiasu..faster run run ask chris and aun to gimme money so dat we can get the early bird offer. =p

We Made it! =p haha. but. i. had to borrow money pulak. cuz i dint hav enough. haha.

on another note. me and sut were so bored in chem class den we like made a new hand signal.
i cant show u here. but yea. =p i noe. so lame. but thats wat chem does to u.

oh well. cny around the corner. as for me. im balikking tomoro. =p some of my frens ar, leaving tomoro like super early like at 4 AM. swt right.
anyway. wont be blogging for a few days. sigh. am planning on playing mahjong like crazeee though. =p

oh before i forget. wanna remind everyone to like watch the solar eclipse on the 1st day of cny itself. =p starts around 4 30 ish and ends around 7 i think. or 6. in the afternoon la.

oh crap, gotta go bath my dog. or else my parents will refuse to let him go back with us. sigh.

LAter.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

mess

hu knew such a small thing could blossom out into a big thing?

i really did not expect this. and i just dont know what to say anymore.

whatever i say becomes so twisted so fast i dont even noe where the straight begins anymore.

lol. i just hav nothing to say.

i found this. one of my mum's students gave it to her.

God grant me the Serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the Courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

all i can say is AMEN!

seriously. i just realised that i was so down today and i kept asking God for like an answer as to what i should do. and den i came across this! wow! talk about wow! i mean. i felt so much better when i read it. haha. it is kinda of a mixed answer but hu cares. i felt a kind of peace. =o. so.
yea. just wanted to share.

also. i blur blur walked into wrong class today. =p

haha. see i dint bring my bio book. and i noe i dont really listen during bio anyway. so i like bring my physics book with me to bio lab. den i took different road from sut and cn. and i like walked into physics lab.
and bro John. was like Rebecca See, yes? and everyone turned to look at me and i was like huh why like my class sit down so fast one today?and den like one of the guys was like becca, ur class downstairs la. den i was like oh righhhhhht. den i faster back out of the class.

as sut would say:
SO FISH LA..................................... -.-

sigh. see what happens wen u dont pay attention when walking.

wanna mati liao la

been reading jodi picoult lately.

she's an super interesting writer.makes u think about stuff.

my fav books by her so far have been:
1. nineteen minutes
2. keeping faith
3. my sister's keeper
4. salem falls

ok. just realise i like all of her books la. but the ones that have made me really think are those above la. it really hurts to be betrayed by someone. but den. did u warrant that betrayal? did u in any way like give cause to said betrayal?

i hate. many things. but i believe if anyone were to ask me. hu i hate the most in this world.
one name will really easily come to mind.

but now. i just think la. wat for i waste so much time hating said person?
cuz it= waste of time/brainpower.

so yea. but really not easy to stop hating someone after hating for so long. really hard.

so. step by step. i tried like stopping immediately. turns out worse la. yucks. i really hav to try not to be in her association but i cant help it. i think it'll be easier once i graduate and like go off to college. cuz i so know that we'll definitely be taking different paths. TG.

haha.

everything doesnt hav to be a competition.

everything doesnt hav to be a drama.

everything doesnt hav to be a stage.

everything doesnt hav to be about u.

everything doesnt hav to be about me.

cuz life goes on.

and believe me.

it sucks wasting ur time and later finding out life has left u behind.

so much more life has to offer u.

so much more. riches u can never imagine.

Peace.

haha. nearly forgot something. today eng teacher was like better start preparing for ur oral presentations. den me and sut and kb were like discussing ideas on wat we gonna do. we already decided that like we were gonna do debate cuz teacher was against us doing plays.

so we came up with this topic: Is premarital sex ok?

and den we did like Pros and Cons. and we were kinda fired up about the idea.

and den we go ask teacher. and she was like NO! and u should hav seen her face man wen we brought it up. kinda like a mixture of amused/horrified/stunned.

but i gotta tell u something.she contemplated for a moment ok. haha. she actally considered. but of cuz no la. sigh. and i thought it was a pretty good idea too. =(

oh well. bak to the drawing board i guess.

crazeeeee

i feel ssoooooooooooooo sstressed. =p

haha. ok i think if i compare to other ppl. i probably arent as stressed as them. but i feel it!!

STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

planning stuff sucks. i really gotta learn how to balance out my stuff and prioritize if i want to do event planning/hospitality in the future. argh.

eh caleb

dev wants all of u to email her.she's stressed out cuz her exams like in a week.

so PRAY for her as well. and email her!!

near death experience?

wat exactly constitutes as a near death experience?

for example, lets say u go for a walk. and u see this mangy dog like coming at u. and u think u see foam at his mouth. and u start thinking its rabid. ahh. u cant run anywhere. den the dog gets closer and u see its just like dried saliva and it in fact avoids u like its afraid of u. so for that moment where u thought it was like rabid and wild and crazy, n u thought u were gonna die.

does that count as a near death experience?

hmmmmmmmm.

hard yea?

lol. ok fine. if the above rule applies. den i had a near death experience today. =p hehe. yea. its kinda really a long story. and we kinda like promised each other not to let other ppl noe. cuz it is kinda embarassing. lol. sigh. anyway. really lots of excitement at scul today.

also. me and sut kept arguing whether sheeps go meh or baaaa.

i personally think baaaaaaaaa. but sut thinks meh. i think baaaaa and dat goats go meeeh. so?

haha. yea. so finally we came up with something we both agree with.

BLACK SHEEPS GO BAAAAAA

WHITE SHEEPS GO MEEEEEH

i think its an interesting and good enough compromise for both of us. =p

b.

wth. i hav absolutely no hair sense.

yup. again. i CUT my hair again. and its bad. worse than last time. yuck. yuck. yuck.

sigh. guess u guys will see me soon with new hairstyle. =[

just pls dont laugh. or smirk. or laugh. or smirk.

yup. geez. im a mushroom head. sigh.