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First up, congrats to jin yee, shu han and khai hoe. =p

ALSO..i found my SUDOKU CUBE!! =p haha..i thought i lost it yesterday u see..and i was super upset..cuz it was new! well it turns out yee aun took it..hehe..=p super happy i got it bak now..and i still havent manage to solve it yet..but i can only do one side..

on other news..today's been a really confusing day..lots of things..thx to a certain someone hu helped me figure out stuff..i think i need a change..=( i duno la..life's super confusing at this moment..im just glad i noe i've got someone to back me up wen im falling down..

sigh..i hav mixed feelings about tomoro..=( duno wat to expect..duno whether to be happy or sad..so many changes happening in my life now.. haha..i guess i've started to realise more now that alot of things just aren't wat they seem on the surface..and even though i thought before i was stable..i think i've just realised i was just standing on a piece of ice ready to tip over any moment..sigh..

i'll be sixteen tomoro..always thought of it as my Sweet 16..but right now i dunt noe wat emotions to feel..it doesnt feel like a special day somehow..not anymore..i just think of it as another day..so many birthdays this month that i duno..feels like im a ghost staring at me from outside my body..and i dont think i like what im seeing..i need..sigh..i dunt noe wat i need..but i noe i'll hav help figuring it out..

so for now..i dont think i want to care so much about wat ppl say anymore..will detach self from body and let them criticise all they want la..

signing off as:
confused b.