HOUSE!

i know i shouldnt have.but just spent the last two hours watching finish season 4 house with dad.=p sigh.so unexpected ending.house spoilers up ahead. dont read if u dont wanna noe.haha.

but seriously y amber..sigh..nvm.i just hope there's a season 5.house is so addictive.

and it doesnt hurt that jesse spencer is so hot. =p gotta love that accent. =p

haha. sighs.

b.

Stuff

Happy 19th Gor. YEs..i purposely mentioned ur age so that everyone will know how OLD ur becoming.haha.i hope u like ur present.

will be a busy weekend.cuz.going to perak for family camp.hehe.plan to have lots of fun.hehe.

sorry teng.our plan or rather my plan failed.cuz of unforseen circumstances. haha. yes.i hope u noe wat im talking about.dont miss me too much in scul tomoro. =p ahaha.

b.

Feeling Better

feeling better now. =p feeling happier too. feeling slightly embarassed.yew juan u noe why.haha.can't believe i did that.but im glad its u and not anyone else.=p hehe.and im definitely more careful now. =p haha. shhh. =p

sigh.school again tomoro.mondays.

see u all! oh and congrats to YE for doing a great job and making profit..=p can i buy a share?hehe.

Doesnt matter whats on the outside
its whats on the inside that counts
First impressions matter though
never let anyone tell u otherwise

i hope thats what i can live by day to day.

b.

SICK

feels so sick.sick.sick.wish i dint go school today.waste of time.could have stayed home and sleep instead.

sigh.not in a good mood.

had such a long day.so little rest.its no wonder im feeling sicker and sicker.argh.i hate being sick.

b.

This is not an irrevelant post!

haha..this is not irrelevant..its not..its NOT..cuz its my life..and if my life is relevant to u..den all my posts ARE relevant..no matter whether im just crapping or not..yes..i am talking especially to a certain someone..haha..=p

IM FORM Four..time is so fast..already more than half a year adi..ish..today me and lily and teng were discussing how OLD we are..seriously..cuz today we went to sri aman's installation..and we realized that this time next year we'll have retired..and sigh..i can't imagine leaving the board la..and another 6 months after we retire..it'll be time to leave CHS..i seriously believe i will cry den..haha..ok maybe not cry..but be super upset..i will really miss CHS..

also made me realize that we only have one year to change the board if we really want to improve it..ONE YEAR..and that doesnt include the hols..so give and take about only 8 months maybe?and we already wasted about one month..so..?there's so many plans..but are they being put into action?there's alot of talk..but are we actually walking the talk?hope todays meeting will really change things..i duno wats the ending since i dint actually stay throughout..so i wont say anything more..will find out tomoro..

a shoutout to ST..cheer up..i noe saying it is easy..but i really really hate seeing u like this..and God always has a plan remember?we discussed it that day..so..Try to forget la..just try..

b.

Another day

Time passes so fast la..sighs..i just want to pause time.

*PAUSE*

wait..its not working??the seconds are still ticking..argh..failure..time still moving on..sigh..i wish not for the first time that there could be more than 24 hours in a day..

so little time

I NEED MORE TIME..

i need to listen to my mind and not act on impulse..sigh..better think things out properly before doing stuff..really regret wat i did..=( i just really really despise u till i'll do anything as long as i am opposing u..i'll say anything as long as i can humiliate u..but then again..im still a coward..

=(

unhappiness overcomes me at this moment

Report Card Day

well..nothing much today..just..i had FUN..=p i noe i noe..ur not supposed to have fun on report card day..but i cant help it..i LIKE report card day..em..parts of it la..haha..u want to noe which parts?ASK ME..=p

super tired now..had to walk around so much just now..sigh..thats it la..too tired to blog much..

IM TIRED-B.

Im Bak!

yay..after two LONG days of not blogging..haha.. im back in action!woohoo..=p

reasons that i have not blogged include being bz bz bz bz bz bz bz bz for the past two days...yup..
sigh..from now on i have to blog less..cuz..my parents say im spending too much time online..but that i am always complaining that i have no time to do other stuff...so..i reALIZe i have to blog less..=(

yea..lately just too tired la..and now so many things coming up..sigh..
1.piano exam..which i am not ready for!i'll be so glad wen its over..am nervous already even though its till 2 weeks away..but 2 weeks is a short time!
2.report card day..actually its tomoro la..
3.family camp..nex week.this is the only thing im excited about
4.prefect stuff..have to do stuff..=p
and many many others la..

oh wait..i almost forgot..HAPPY BIRTHDAY AI SHUEN!!!and im sorry i forgot to bring ur cake..oops..=p dont worry..we'll celebrate tomoro..

and..i hope that my teacher will say nice things about me tomoro to my dad..=p haha..not that im naughty..=p

on another note..I DESPISE U!u @#$%^#$!@#$%^&*%@#%%$%..yea..u unfairshoetakingoffinclassfavouritsmshowing teacher..argh..stop picking on prefects..ur so perasan!u dont give ppl chances!u freakin im such an experienced teacher i noe how to tell when u dont bring books but somehow couldnt tell i didnt bring mine!ahaha..let me tell u i laughed at that so many times..in fact thinking about that has brought a smile to my face..and i feel better about wat happened today already..

yea..teachers..love some..hate some..anyway..gotta go..blog more later..i mean..i'll blog wenever i can..=p

released frustrations adi -B.

-.- blur

i.have.nothing.to.talk.about.today.so.i.am.bored.

seriously.ppl.update.ur.blogs.more.often.like.me.hehe.=p.its.so.boring.

I.AM.BORED.BORED.BORED.BORED.BORED.BORED.BORED.

SIGHS.

i.am.confused.

i.want.XXXX

hehe.life.is.hard.

ending.msg.now.

B.

Blast from the past

i just found some old poems of mine..im not going to put them up here..its too embarrassing..=p but i can say they were super funny..haha..anyway..thats not important la..its just that..they got me thinking la..about what i used to think about last time..back then..i guess friendship was the one of the most important things to me..i think that was because of certain incidents that i won't mention..

but now..haha..i STILL think friendship is important la of course..but i guess there's different priorities now.. =p it just got me thinking about how much my friendships has changed over the years..i look back and i see all the old promises about how we would grow old and stay best friends forever and our kids would be best friends too and so on so on =p..haha..and now..i've not kept in touch with most of my old schoolmates..in fact..i think i've lost some of the contacts already..haha.. =p shows la..that as we grow up we change..different things become more important to us..we change in personality as we struggle to find ourselves..

at first i found it hard especially with certain friends..friends that i thought were my entire world..friends i believed that without them i would just not be able to go on..when i first realized i was losing them..i freaked..i tried so hard but i just couldn't win..we drifted further apart..but as time wore on..the pain lessened too..i found better friends..=p friends i now hope will last forever too..haha..hope history doesn't repeat itself..

but in any case..i already know that i have one best friend that will last forever..he's always close to my heart..=p haha..

thats all of my reminiscences for today..back to the present..

b.

P.S. I do miss the friendship that i shared with a certain friend.I know I will never find that comradie in anyone else.You were that special.But you refused to put in any effort.So now i guess that leaves us standing where we are.Goodbye.

MORE PHOTOS

thats dev

this is shuk

and this is my hand

Me

I feel so torn up inside
duno which path to choose
both paths are hard and rocky
there will be no smooth ground

i've been down both roads before
one road led to happiness
the other to pain
the difference?

the one to happiness meant
being in pain all the way
the one to pain meant
being happy all the way

so?u ask me?
if i knew the answer
would i tell u?

i have to make a choice soon
and the hardest part isn't
knowing what is at the end of both roads
but its making the choice

today dont noe y wen i upload the photos upload super fast so yea..haha..

Random Pics of my dog

btw..all these photos were taken on different days. =p when he wasnt throwing a fit or when he wanted to be forgiven for peeing on my mum's car tyres.. =p

Here i am again..!

sigh..i just cant keep away..anyway..just finished editing stuff for oral presentation..=p so decided to come do this..hehe..nothing much happened today..cept for the book fair..and yea..i bought books of course! =p in fact i think im gonna go read now..so..TATA...

just wanna share some facts:
1. The tiger is larger and more powerful than the lion.
2. The cheetah does not belong to the same genus as the lion, tiger etc.
3. Cheetah's can't climb trees.
4. Jaguars and tigers love swimming. =p
5.Cheetah's cant roar but they can purr.
6. Jaguars have the strongest bite among all felines and its bite can pierce turtle shells.

Notice that i didnt say anything about lions. Thats cuz they aren't interesting..haha..=p

thats all folks! B.

=p

i think i will cut down on my number of posts..for a few reasons...

1. i dont wanna be a blog addict..though sadly i already am..=p
2. i dont hav that much time anymore..
3. cuz..i think its not that healthy for me..=p haha..serious..

so anyway..its just a short post for today..=p haha..serious..i dont wanna do daily posts..i will fight the urge to stop posting..=p haha..we'll see how long i can stand it la..=p

determined B.

hehe!

today..shuk played drums for the first time in adults worship..GO SHUK haha..*crash*
wanna see pics of her??actually quite blur but here u go..

WOOHOO!!SHUKY!!

haha..can't believe dev bought me a rubik's cube..now i can..i mean HAVE to practice everyday or else she will knock me on the head with the cube..so now i have a sudoku cube and a rubik's cube..yay! =p haha..can't believe in one week i've become so engrossed in a CUBE..lols..=p anyway..here are some pics of the cube..tee hee..

my rubiks and sudoku cube side by side..=p

dev holding the newly bought still nicely wrapped cube..=p

after its open..hehe..

hehe..so thats about it la..damn..josh ur right..i am hyped up about blogging..crap la..wonder whether i'll still be like this after a month..we'll just have to wait and see huh?.. =p

HAV A NICE DAY EVERYBODY..I noe I DID.. =p

happy B.

H&G Concert

hehehe...great concert tonight..so glad i went even though at first it was to support ST..but in the end it turned out to be worthwhile..=p i think my throat is sore after all that shouting..tee hee..cant bliv wen we yelled encore everyone actually followed..haha..anyways..it was a great fun filled night..got to see everyone all dressed up..especially a certain AS..=p im sure all the guys dropped their jaws wen they saw her..hahaha..ok will stop teasing her now..

anyway..yea..want to say something else..the ONE LIFE exhibition rocks!!for those of u guys that don't know what that is..its an exhibition by world vision and other ppl that is about AIDS+HIV..its super interesting and yea..GO SEE IT..tomoro is the final day though haha..but thats for KL la..i think its going to other states in Malaysia too..not that u KL ppl will go la..=p learned alot from it..for more info about ONE LIFE..go to www.worldvision.com.my

trust me..its worth going..as for what i learned:
1.HIV is only infectious in body fluids such as blood, semen..........
2.HIV is not infectious in sweat or tears!

so..caring for ppl with HIV is fine..u cant get HIV through that..nor can donating blood..so..dont remain ignorant la..thats all i can say..

so for now..B.

Resolutions

ok i noe this is a little too late..but..=p smiles.. the following are things i plan to achieve after my sweet 16..=p

1. maintain a blog..=p
2. get great results for the incoming term
3. work especially hard on add maths..
4. take Jet for walks frequently.. <>
5. do a great job as a prefect
6. LEARN how to solve rubiks cube <=p>
7. practice piano MORE frequently <>
8. laugh more often?or less often? ahah that i cant make up my mind on..
9. treat family members with more patience..especially younger bro
10. be a better person generally..=p

hehe..thats about it la..

B.

SWEET 16 =p

okay..quick quick...write quickly..i want to finish this post b4 my birthday's over..=p haha..

well first of all..this has seriously got to be one of the best birthdays i've ever had in a long time..my gosh..u guys..all of u rock la..seriously..i feel soo..warm..hehe..duno how to put it into other words..seriously..just thinking about wat all u guys did..i feel so touched..oh crap..tears are springing into my eyes again..

a special thx to Becca C hu called all the way from singapore..=p just like u said u would..
to the 5 hu..i duno after being out of touch for so long still remembered..
to all my rockin frens at scul..sigh..u guys..this will truly be a day to remember..
also to my family..especially my gor..cant believe he remembered..hehe..=p
to my CALEB dg members..thx u guys..really appreciate it..
and finally to everyone else out there..thx so much for making this such a wonderful day..=p

yea..this day has not been marred by the fact that during AGM i did not get the post i wanted..=p seriously..all of u out there..IM FINE!..i really enjoyed this day..and it was all thx to u guys..im so blessed..really..super blessed to have great frens like u guys..i just cant imagine a world without u ppl there..

=p smiles again..yesterday i thought i would feel nothing today..yet today i surprised myself..u guys really made me happy la..and honestly..this day has taught me soo much..about who my true frens really are..i mean..i see it shining right there in ur eyes..and i noe that u ppl will be there for me if i fall hard..i thought it stupid..but i mean..ur actions today really determined a few things la..i truly truly noe wat to do now..

u noe wat..i thought i hated u..really..it was such a love hate relationship..and sigh..like i said..u showed me hu u really were..and i thought i was looking through at the big picture..but it turns out i've only been seeing part of u through that narrow window..and today that window widened..guess wat..i dont feel anything now..im glad..its like i've finally gotten rid of that burden..i..i..i..sigh..im glad that chapter of my life is now concluded..

anywayz..just wanna stress how great it was to spend this day with u guys..and sorry to a few ppl whom i disappointed today..i really appreciate the effort u guys made la..=p

thx again..a final happy sweet 16 to mua..=p smiles

signing off as:
A 16 year old B. =p

wat

First up, congrats to jin yee, shu han and khai hoe. =p

ALSO..i found my SUDOKU CUBE!! =p haha..i thought i lost it yesterday u see..and i was super upset..cuz it was new! well it turns out yee aun took it..hehe..=p super happy i got it bak now..and i still havent manage to solve it yet..but i can only do one side..

on other news..today's been a really confusing day..lots of things..thx to a certain someone hu helped me figure out stuff..i think i need a change..=( i duno la..life's super confusing at this moment..im just glad i noe i've got someone to back me up wen im falling down..

sigh..i hav mixed feelings about tomoro..=( duno wat to expect..duno whether to be happy or sad..so many changes happening in my life now.. haha..i guess i've started to realise more now that alot of things just aren't wat they seem on the surface..and even though i thought before i was stable..i think i've just realised i was just standing on a piece of ice ready to tip over any moment..sigh..

i'll be sixteen tomoro..always thought of it as my Sweet 16..but right now i dunt noe wat emotions to feel..it doesnt feel like a special day somehow..not anymore..i just think of it as another day..so many birthdays this month that i duno..feels like im a ghost staring at me from outside my body..and i dont think i like what im seeing..i need..sigh..i dunt noe wat i need..but i noe i'll hav help figuring it out..

so for now..i dont think i want to care so much about wat ppl say anymore..will detach self from body and let them criticise all they want la..

signing off as:
confused b.

SIGHSS..

super depressing day today..

dont ask y..felt so......xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

sighs..wen will it be over.....and no..not cuz of that thing but cuz of another thing...sigh..

me feels kinda betrayed..kinda like dragged through the mud...i dont blame u..nor u..but U are so childish la..seriously..ur attitude..sigh..dont wanna talk to much about it la..

anyway..on a brighter note..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAT K + BECCA C!

haha's.ur 16! and older! hahahaha...IS that a WRINKLE i see???kidding..! grow wiser and stronger in God.. =p

sigh..btw..someone just told me my bloog's lame..u noe..i gotta agree..=p but i love it that way..cuz i am a lil lame at times..CHILDISH too..and im not afraid to admit it..i hope i nvr grow out my childishness..always want to keep a little with me..doesnt hurt to be able to look on the bright side at times..u noe..or be a lil ignorant of all the evilish things out there..

SO THERE! =P

so...i just want to end by wishing the top 5 all the best for tomoro..

=p all the best..sleep well tonight..dont need to be too nervous..just imagine EVERYONE IN UNDERWEAR..but dont crack up..best advice passed on down from generation to generation..=p

signing off as:

slightly depressed B.

Days

Ok..the first really proper msg u guys are getting from me..okay..im new at this stuff and i dont really know how to work my blog yet..but just u wait!!cunted b will be flying through!!haha..and u all will bite my dust..okok i noe..too much bragging for a still newborn blog noob..=p ya la..sorry lo..i will learn from all my big bro and big sis and be their young Padawan!

Ho Obi-xxxxxxx ...hav no idea hu my JediBlog-Master is yet..but u wait and see....u wait and see.....

MUAHAHAHAHAHHA

ok..as usual...getting ahead of myself adi..and my freaking idiot bro is annoying me like crazy...i feel like strangling him..ARGH

younger siblings.tsk.

anyway..this is my first REAL post and i wanted it to matter u noe..but sigh..i cant think of any relevant crap..=p haha..ok la..this is it for now..at least im not as rushed as just now..

OH WAIT!!!!!!!

yea..today is SU and YEW JUAN's FIRST ANI..they probably wont read this but..just want to dedicate this post to them..they've been an inspiration to me la..i whole love them..=p so yea..CONGRATS To both of You for findin each other..=p haha..duno wat the heck im writing but yea..=p

also..on other updates..tomoro's the head prefect elections 08/09..really scary..but at the same time superexciting..=p duno la..cant wait to see hu's head..will do my best to vote for the best person....ahaha..i already noe im doing my best..just hope other ppl vote based on their abilities and capabilities and not..em..based on other stuff la..and this applies for the upcoming AGM too..=p no one is gonna force my vote nor steal it..im gonna vote hu i think will rock the post..=p so thats it for now la..cant really think of wat else to say..so..adios..

signing off as:
sleepy B.

First post ever

im gonna keep this to a minimum since im in a rush..=p kinda doing this in a rush as u can see..lol

anyway...look here for more posts soon!!=p cant wait to start proper blogging stuff..lol

signing off as:
excited B.