help

wat do u do when u hav a problem and u noe u cant tell anyone?
wat do u do?
u noe its big.
u noe its huge.
u noe u cant keep it in anymore cuz its just eating u inside out.
Its painful. It'll hurt everyone.
ITs something u noe all ur frens just cant relate to.

WAT DO U DO?

wat do i do?

i just freaking hate starting the new year like this. sigh.

To make up

welllllll. its been loong since i updated. sooo. i'll try to like put everything in one post.den i wont have to update for a long time after that.=p

hmm...lets see...where do i begin.....

christmas party!!!at yew juans house!!!almost everybody turned up la. cept ranee cuz she's in japan. lol. lots of fun. and me keep kenaing that pass the parcel thing.so totally bad luck. but i admit i deserved the 2nd time la. ah. good games shing. =p haha.always good food. eating till im full. =p i think i've grown like fatter this hols seriously.almost afraid to get on the weighing scale. =p

christmas day. well...as usual. always go church on that day. =p and later hav like an awesome lunch. =p haha.well this year's christmas day wasnt that much fun. partly cuz i think we dint hang around much after service and all. not like last year. so much fun. anyway. i did take some photos but obviously im too lazy to post it here since
1. my internet is super slow punya
2. i look stupid in almost all of them
3. im lazy =p
haha. yea i noe. sorrreeeee shing.......XD. maybe someday laaaaaaaaaa.its not like we took lots of photos together neway.so now u noe. =p photos taken on becca's cam are meant for her eyes only. =p hahha.

talking about christmas. CHRISTMAS PRESSIES. =p
1. becca's cam. =p haha.gift from mum and dad. woo! =p i would put a pic of it here if i could take a pic of it but obviously i cant. =p haha.
2. stuff from all my frens. like su xian.dev.oon.aly.alex. so on.
3.stuff from my bro's. oh wait.they dint get me anything. oh wait. i just remembered. yea they did give me some stuff. lol.
haha. anyway. it wasnt too shabby la. =p but obviously im mostly in love with my cam. =p

ok.see after christmas. on that day itself. balik kampung. cuz nex day is my grandpa's death annivesary. yup. so that night. as the big house back home is ultimately one of the most boring place on earth. me and my bro's decided to play firecrackers(having found them while spring cleaning a few days before). haha. so. actually it was supposed to be payback to the opposite house who never fails to hav loud noisy firecrackers display every chinese new year wen we go bak, thus not allowing us to get beauty sleep. BUT. wat happened was. the leftover OLD firecrackers we had were ALL LIGHTS AND NO NOISE. so. we had to abandon our plans. =(
BUT we never giving up. decided that we were celebrating Jesus's BIRTHDAY instead. yay. one good change of plans. =p so yours truly decided to capture this special moment with her new found cam. =p and happily took photos.(which i wont post =p) only to find out later that her cam has a special fireworks scene thing but she didnt use it. yea. oh well. wat to do. im prepared for new years! =p

haha. so basically that was christmas. lol. so. stay for one day only la.nex day come home. den sat. i go to my old fren tesh's house for birthday party. lol. well. it was first time in long time dat the entire THE 5 was there gathered in one place.so we chatted alot la. den we watched one missed call. horror movie. very interesting.except that at one point tesh's bro burst into the room and said boo at a very scary part and we all screamed loudly causing the birthday gal herself to scold us cuz it was like 11 pm. sorry tesh. anyway.it was a good time la.

den mon. goin out with e, yl, and sut to mv. =p lots of fun actually. i sincerely apologise to ed if i was very grumpy and snappy. sorrrreeeee.it was fun shopping with u though. den we had lunch at carls jr. not bad la. and later go shopping to look for yl's prom dress. though i had to leave early. hope u found the right one.

and now here i am. blogging. lols. hope this covers everything yew juan. =p dont assasinate me. =p goin out tomorooo. haha. ALSO.

Blessed Christmas and a HAPPY new Year everyone!!

hope u guys have fun partying this new year! i noe i will. =p

oh. i nearly forgot. i want to write my new years resolution here first. a lil early i noe but i dont plan on updating for a long time cuz sculs gonna open n im gonna be super bz first week. so.

1.Have better relationship with God.
2.Better relationship with family n frens.
3.take better care of my dog, keyword being BETTER
4.to constantly email overseas frens =p
5.i'll try to blog more often,plus update facebook with photos and stuff
6.study more=stick to my timetable
7.not to get too bz to not have time for self
8.not to worry so much about spm.
9.stop doing lame stuff
10.think about future career seriously.

main 10? i bet i wont keep all of them. lol. =p but i definitely hav a few goals in mind that i want to accomplish. hope i have enough strength plus resolution to do them all.

sigh. i gotta stop thinking so much about kiddy stuff.i hate that im growing up and hav to think so much about future plans plus stuff. i hate that i always think forward. i hate that i am such a worry wart sometimes. i hate that i dont look stressed even though i feel stressed. =p i hate ... i hate... i hate... sigh. gonna try think positive la.

anyway. since im not gonna be updating for a long time. hope u guys had a great year this year. this year was a mix of ups and downs but im not gonna let the downs keep me from heading up. so. i pray next year will be a year that i dont stress alot. thats all. keep seeing white hairs on me head. =p so. hav a good ole new year u guys! love u peeps. =p

the one and only. *drum rolls............*
b. =p

camp

everyone's blogged about camp already.so im slow. =(

anyway. em. yew juan dont kill me but i dont feel like blogging about camp. sooreeee.

basically. everything was awesome laaaaaa.

sigh. duno y i like no mood to blog during hols. and u see my posts. 5 days den 1 post only.and can u pls imagine right the first month i started blogging.every 2 days sure one post.
i guess sut was right that i would eventually tire of blogging. =p

haha. yea. but im not that tired. YET. =p

anyway. camp was awesome in a way to me. i learned soooooo much. but seriously. no blogging mood. also. i noe this is really selfish but i dont feel like sharing with u guys wat my camp experience this year was like.


dont be sad ko juan. u can read about it in su's paper. =p

haha.one thing im glad about la.is that che su made us write it all down.what we learned i mean.im glad she made us do that. im sure i'll appreciate it sooooo much in the future when im down or straying from God. It will be such a great reminder. =p i noe alot of us grumbled but THANKS CHE SU. =p

end of this lame/lifeless post.
b.

Isnt it funny?

Isnt it funny how we can adore someone and they dont notice you except to throw u a cursory glance every once in a while?
Isnt it funny how we can continue to adore that person and our day is made when that person smiles?
Isnt it funny how we dont notice anything else once that person is around?

I personally think its called LOVE.

it can come from nowhere. just hits u in the face.

BUT SOMETIMES

DO we really appreciate it enough?or do we just take it for granted?

What I mean is. Love is so BIG,HUGE,GIGANTIC,MONSTROUS.

We dont just love. We are LOVED too.

From our parents. from our family. from our friends.
Dont you think sometimes we are too caught up in LOVING our ownselves?

ya we do.admit it.Love ourselves I mean.

Anyway.Do we even take time to appreciate the LOVE we are given?

I admit i do take the ppl closest to me for granted sometimes.

Can you just imagine if ppl stopped loving themselves for a while just to love someone else,maybe someone poor,someone without parents. Maybe this world would be a better place somehow. With so much love to give and be recieved. Love after all is simply Bigger than Anything.

Ok I am getting off topic. I just wanted to say la. You know how we can care so much for the things which don't care the same way for us. And we are so hurt by them. And we feel soooo much pain. And we wish for the pain to go away but it's so hard.

I dont know. JUST TRY to wrap your mind around this la ok. MAYBE SOMEWHERE OUT THERE, SOMEONE IS BEING HURT THE SAME WAY BY YOU?because of a harsh word, or a dismissive wave. so you know.

Be careful la. Someone might be hurt by the way u treated them.

Even if you don't know it. EVen MORE if you dont know it.

I hope i somehow made sense.

freedom at last

i dont hate u anymore. i dont hate u anymore. i dont hate u anymore. and u noe wat.

IT FEELS SO GOOD

how do i even begin to explain our relationship?

then. we. together. us. now. u. apart. me.

me + u = complicated

or maybe its just me.

sigh. loving u and hating u. feeling guilty for doing so. but do i actually owe u anything?
in fact u owe me. for somehow stripping me of trust. how do u even pay me back?

all the time u used me. but thats just what u are. i think i see a little clearer now. ppl have give me some perspective. and. i am soo grateful for them.

u used to bring out this kind of repressed up feeling in me. each time i see u. like 1 whole boiling pot of HATE just comes pouring out. wats to say brought it on. after how u treated me. though i shamelessly admit that at times i was jealous of u. no matter how crazy it sounds i have to admit it. i need to get everything off.

can u imagine the first time i was told? wat u said about me? u have no idea how much it hurt.

i bet u dont even remember anymore.

haha. the things u do. seems so trivial. in actual fact. sigh.

doesnt matter. whatever i say cant change who u are.

but i realised i could change me. i needed to let go. these feelings were eating me up.

u have no idea how many times over the years i have tried to let go. how i've tried.

But thanks to my Saviour. u noe. one day i was listening. and all i heard was

LET GO. release.

so im happy to say now. finally. after 4+ years of all these hurt/fun/laughter/pain/anger/brokeness/love/hate

told u it was complicated.lol.

anyway. i dont hate u anymore.

judge me all u want. if u think im talking about u. hahahahahahaha. good luck.

one more thing. i need to ask ur forgiveness. so. forgive me. for everything. im so sorry.

i might sound crazy. but yea. i still want to be friends. so. see u when i see u.

perth.

its ok here.weather is nice.. =p and even if it rains.it like drizzles. and nvr for more than an hour.in fact usually like. 10 mins. =p serious. so its cool.

i hate the flies though.argh. no.1 insect i hate the most.

i miss my frens..my awesome dg leaders(in nat's words) =p..

sigh..its kinda boring..but its ok..the internet here is sooooooo much better than at home.. =p

soo..chat online everyday. =p

no pics yet. nothing much to see anyway.. =p

later.

Im in AUS

im in perth. =) visiting my bro. =)

haha.nothing else to update now. =) just =)

becca.

SPLASH

ok.so this time it didnt go as badly as last time. if i remember correctly..the last dg water fight..well it involved me accidentally poking zhijian's eye and him yelling at me till i cried. =p haha..but den again that was 2 or 3 years ago.. =p haha..

sigh.first comes the pizza making....den SPLASH.. ffun.....................

den eating again..............haha..if u wanna see photos go see facebook. =p

man su uploads those photos fast la wei...lol..

sigh.tired. just had a tiff with dad.i tell u ar..!
@#$%^&*()_*&^%$#@!@#%$^&*()98&^%^&^%$&^$!@#$%()_##^@#$

siiiiighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

b.

sekinchan

one word-exhausting.

17 hours without sleep, while running out draining energy out of self not to mention the burning killing sun......................but.............................................

we did hav lotsa good food!!! =p

haha. lets see..i think nothing is worth mentioning cept.............

the fireflies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes it rained. luckily it stopped during dinnerrr. haha. n...off weee goooooooooo

kakakaka. so the place was open! yay! den we had to like split into groups of 4...

so actually me and kb and lily one group......and e and yao yao and liv and wj one group. so.....need 4 ppl ma..so we 3 run around like mad looking for partner..end up we like one of the last groups..so nobody wanna join us (they're probably scared of us) =p ahhaa.ok la no one wanted to split from their friends marr...we only need one person u see...sooooo...fine la..we go wait..and den.......the big hoopla began.......................onnly those there noe wat im talking about...

so in the end..me and lily and kah lok and pn tan cy and her kid were on our boat..hahah..yay! =p
and den our boat guy. =p he like row super fast.we like passed 3 other sampans. =p nearly knocked one.and we did knock another one. =p ahahah.so yea la..all of us saw the other sampans stopping at like some places with fireflies..so we were like..wens our turn....!!! =p haha.but silently of course...so all of a sudden we are like passing all the boats..and we see other boats turning around to go bak already..so ok..at first we were like cool..we get a longer ride..but we go deeper and deeper..and im embarassed to admit this but i thought he was gonna kidnap us.. =p hahah. yea so long story short.he didnt. =p he stopped at this place la..lots of fireflies.close enough to touch.but i hate bugs. so. kah lok la.shake the branch.so like a firefly landed on me. and den like it cannot fly away.argh. so....we stopped twice. den only we turn around.

i tell u ar..ourr sampan guy damn buff wei..hahha..go so fast...and come bak so fast..dint even get a mosquito bite..=p hehehe..

so go home..tiiiiiiiiired...

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

p.s. wen i got bak.my mango smelt sour.but it tastes sweeeeeeeeeeeeeet.=p

Friends

If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one
day, so I never have to live without you."
--- Winnie the Pooh

"True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known
until it be lost."
---Charles Caleb Colton

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."

"Friendship! is one mind in two bodies."
---Mencius

"Friends are God's way of taking care of us."

"If you should die before me, ask if you could bring a friend."
---Stone Temple Pilots
"I'll lean on you and you lean on me and we'll be okay."
---dave Matthew's band

"If all my friends were to jump off ! a bridge, I wouldn't jump with
them, I'd be at the bottom to catch them."

"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Bestf
riends listen to what you don't say."

"We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take
a little of each other everywhere."
--- Tim McGraw

"My father always used to say that when you die, if you've got five
real friends, then you've had a great life."
---Lee Iacocca

"Hold a true friend with both your hands."
---Nigerian Proverb

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing itback to you when you have forgotten the words."
---unknown

i dedicate this post to all my friends. =p i noe i can count on u guys. =p

Love

i was looking thorugh my old myspace blog thx to shuk.and i came across this. reading it.... =p

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in
return, but what is the most painful is to love
someone and never finding the courage to let the
person know how you feel.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people
before meeting the right one so that when we finally
meet the right person, we should know how to be
grateful for that gift.

Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion,
the romance-and you find out you still care for that person.

A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone who
means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it
was never bound to be and you just have to let go.

When one door of happiness closes, another opens
but often we look so long at the closed door that we
don't see the one which has been opened for us.

The best kind of friend is the one you could sit
on a porch, swing with, never say a word, and then
walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had.

Its' true that we don't know what we've got until
we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know
what we've been missing until it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance
that they'll love you back! don't expect love in
return, just wait for it to grow in their hearts but
if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours.

There are things you love to hear but you would
never hear it from the person whom you would like to
hear it from, but don't be deaf to hear it from the
person who says it with his heart.

Never say goodbye when you still want to try -
never give up when you still feel you can take it -
never say you don't love that person anymore when you can't let go.

Love comes to those who still hope even though
they've been disappointed, to those who still believe
even though they've been betrayed, need to love those
who still love even though they've been hurt before.

It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an
hour to like someone and a day to love someone - but
it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Don't go for looks' it can deceive;
don't go forwealth - even that fades away.
go for someone whomakes you smile coz'
only a smile makes a dark dayseem bright.
hope you find that person.

There are moments in life when you really miss
someone that you want to pick them from your dreams
and hug them for real! hope you dream of that someone.

Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to
go; be what you want to be cuz you have only one life
and one chance to do all the things you want in life.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human,
enough hope to make you happy and
enough money to buy me gifts :)

Always put yourself in other's shoes. if you feel
that it hurts you, it probably does hurt the person, too.

A careless word may kindle strife; a cruel word
may wreck a life; a timely word may level stress;
but a loving word may heal and bless.

The beginning of love is to let those we love be
perfectly themselves, and not to twist them with our
own image - otherwise, we love only the reflection of
ourselves we find in them.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the
best of everything; they just make the most of
everything that comes along their way.

Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt,
those who have searched and those who have tried.
for only they can appreciate the importance of people who
have touched their lives.

Love starts with a smile,develops with a kiss and ends with a tear. :(
The brightest future will always be based on a
forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until
you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone
around you was smiling - live your life so that when
you die, you're smiling and everyone around you is crying.

haha.nice yea? =p

b

YAY

haha.i can go sekinchan i can go... =p ahhaha..fren called up to say tui time changed to tomoro night..so i can go on friday after alll...SUPER happy. =p ahah..

of course there are downsides to the trip. being. .....................

but i wont let that keep me down..i'll just go enjoy hanging with frens =p tee hee..

i can go

i can go!

i can go!

also something else.i was quite upset cuz i hav to quit my chem tui nex yr cuz of some stuff la.but.now.there just might be a solution.so =p =p =p happy happy me. =p

b.

;)

im at my dad's office.first time i've been up here. =p super coooool. haha.

and the internet is sooo fast too.not like at home.

sigh. i cant go sekincang la. want to go.but i cant.cuz i hav argh. i hav bm tuition. usually i adore my bm tui classes.i like my bm tui teacher i like bm tui frens and 2 hours always fly by so fast. but. I WANT TO GO SEKINCANG!!!!!

im annoyed beaause for the last 3 weeks i dint hav bm tui u see.teacher bz and stuff like that.i dont mind la.but.argh.super bad timing la...cuz u see for the next two weeks i wont be able to attend bm tui.cuz im goin hol....sigh.........so if i dont go this week, i'll miss the next two lessons. and going on sekincang not worth wasting money la..

oh welllll..cant always get wat we want..thought about it alot la..u guys go hav fun..without me..*sob* *sob* dont want to let u see me cry..*waaaaaaaaaa*....

gosh i can be such a baby man.. =p ahaha.

sighhhhhh.

i've been thinking about doing debate.for some time.but this year im gonna act on it la.thx to lily. =p ehehe.i hope i dont make a fool out of myself..

dad just looked in on me.i think im gonna go home soon.so i better go do that hw i promised him i'd do if i came with him to office.. =p hahaha.

b.

Day out

whoa.this morning i actually went to go queue with my bro for the secret recipe cake offer. our mistake?we left the house at 10.30. whoa.when we got there...the line was looooooooooong.seriously long..and foolish me wanted to wait till 11 wen the store open and den see how the line move.so lets see..i waited in the sun for about 40 mins??the line like moved one inch per half an hour.during which i admit.i tried to see if i could cut queue. =p hahaha.but seriously.no space man. ppl will give u stares like nothing else...so sigh...gave up.went home.

wasted time.seriously.so anyway.im supposed to meet up with one of my bff's which i only see like 5 times a year.cuz she's different scul plus we stay far far away.so. yea. we went out.watched HSM 3. (yea i noe quite late). so.the show was okay.i thoought it was better than HSM 2 la.in my opinion. songs not bad. soo. we hanged all day.super fun.

hehe.since hols.maybe we'll go out again soon. =p

so tired now.sigh.tomoro music lesson.yippeee.

b.

another day in my life-wasted?

sheesh.another day.another year.another decade.argh.wat im a i doing in a wooden box?

sigh.time time time.super fast la.

yesterday LAST DAY of scul. haha. dint spend time in class though.mostly spent the day wandering around. =p hahaha.hahaha. CLUEDO! =p well. last day of form 4.dreaded day has arrived. sigh.

i can't believe im going to be form 5 la.argh. career choice making time.ideally.i want to know what im going to do by the end of next year. ST!!dont forget.we're supposed to go to that career helping counselling thing.

for those that dont noe wat im talking about. u see.me and sut went our sculs edufair this year. =p hhaha.ok.we crash every year la. =p special priviledge. =p anyway. we saw like this booth. and den being all interested and all we go see see la. =p so anyway.this person was like wat do u want to do? and we were like DUNO! =P so she said. we can help u figure it out. so.......

she asked us to go take this career interest inventory thing.its like a test.they like represent alot of sculs so.. if ur interested...

the test is every 1st and 3rd sat. we're going to the closest one near us which is subang office. add is 36 Jalan SS15/8 47500 Subang. time is 9am-1pm. Y should u take this test? apparently its cuz like u sit for a theory test which they determine which career ur likely to take or something like that.then they sit u down for one to one counselling and they help guide u la to the best career for u. all in 1 day.and u go home more knowledgable. hopefully. =p but....it comes with a price.i think one test RM200 but im not sure. i think its that price if i remember correctly la. so anyway. ya i think im gonna go take this test thing la.

so many goals to accomplish. wanna finish some of them by the end of this year.wish me luck. =p

feeling frenzied yet relaxed,
b.

oh crap

i just realised for this entire month.i only like blogged TWICE.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

so...will take my time to write out another post. =p

JOb hunting. =p

haha. i feel so stupid. yesterday someone called me and was speaking chinese,(u noe how i hate conversing in chinese) anyway, said person offered me job at this shop.and me.stupid crazy me.turned it down.all cuz she was speaking chinese and i was like kinda nervous.aih.stupid stupid me.and the shop was a place i really wanted to work out la.its quite cool one..=p sigh

oh welllllll...i can only work in december anyway.nov is such a bz bz month for me.and all the shops mainly want ppl to work for like minimum two months.

OH WELLLLLl..but i really feel stupid now la. siiiigh.

........................................................................................................................................................................

on another brighter note. haha.dev's bak.for a week la.

ahhhhhhhahahaha.cant help but laugh.

erm..anybody out there who thinks i can pass for an 18 year old?

shuk thinks i cant
dev thinks i cant
st thinks i cant
yj ever the diplomatic tried to avoid answering,but i noe he thinks i cant.=p

haha.

will not tell u how the subject came up. =p

LOL.


happy im still 16
b.

Short hair

well..its been almost a month since i blogged.=p time to revive ze blog. =p

well.i cut my hair short.short short.i think this is the shortest its ever been in 8 years since the last time my mum cut it short was when i was std 3 or 4. i cried.seriously.told my mum she'll nvr ever cut my hair short again.well..i kept true to that for about 8 years la. haha.

so see.typical day begins.tuition blah blah blah. den my mum drives me to hairdresser.big smug grin on her face. then she starts talking to my hairdresser.and they both start telling me how short hair is gonna be so managable and that i wont ever want it to grow long again. sigh. we'll see. =p

haircut over.well...okay..

school today. walks into prefect room.

kb: BECCA U CUT UR HAIR.

julian and li wei turns and start staring.

me: yea i did..okay.

li wei starts laughing and smiling.

julian wisely keeps his mouth shut..

me sits down starts stuffing the spbt books into locker.sits down looks through new school magazine. lily comes in.

lily(points at me, one hand over mouth to cover up laughing): OMG becca!ur hair!its so puffy!OMG. ur hair!

me: does it really look that bad?

lily(laughing hysterically): no!its just PUFFY.

yee aun walks in.stops.is speechless

i go outside for a while.come in for meeting.lily still smiling ever so widely keeps going puffy puffy. =p

den edrea comes in.i wait for her reaction.

Edrea looks at me.mouth drops open.den she comes over and tell me its better than she expected it would look like.

sigh.

she goes over to zong yao and tells himm to look at my hair.both start smirking. siiiiighhhhhh.

oh well............

dennis sees me.cant stop smiling. (great, not another one.)

different reactions throughout the day.

ai shuen: ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
kok peng: becca ni jian tou fa ah....
sook chuan: u look cute =p
jing wei:hao kan ah.
kh: its not bad la

i dint write everyone's reaction la.but i remember ok..

AND THE THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE DAY PPL KEEP ASKING ME Y I CUT MY HAIR..ish..

i cut cuz i wanted to la.ok??????

sorry i dont hav photos.let me assure u.im still me. =p

short haired and proud of it,
b. =p

p.s. su teng's reaction was the best: 'u still look the same.' =p see.thats y she's my bff. =p

A Post

haha.long time no post.seriouusly.i think i've smashed my last record of not blogging. and to imagine when i first started blogging i couldnt go two days without blogging. haha.

i've seriously lost the mood to blog.duno whether its due to receent stress from exams or.......duno la.........

im seriously not gonna blog till after exams.so just a heads up. =p this shouuld be my final post for about 2 weeks more.

seriously lily.i have no idea how u find time to blog.kai boon u too. haha.im like totally struggling just to make time to come online.argh.

hols not enough time.everything not enough time.i noe i shouldnt complain on and on but i cant help it.sigh.

better not waste more time. =p

on blogging hiatus.
b.

not today

omg.just read lily's blog.just realised she's so right! argh. 8 weeks left.NOO.

i remember at the beginning of this year i was like.im gonna treat form 4 with care.cuz i dont want it to be like form 3.time passing so fast and all. and now i look bak on my form 4 year its like WAT THE..............i think i've wasted alot of time here and there.i feeel as if i hav no more time to do anything anymore.

i really regret alot of the things i've done this year.also really regret that i didnt have..no made the time to do things im sure i'll really regret in the future.argh.life.life.life.i dont wanna grow up and make decisions yet.yet i noe as i grow older i grow..sligtly wiser. i hope.=p but.sigh.y couldnt have been wiser wen i was younger. =( den i would have made the better choices.chosen the better things to do with my time. =(

so depressed. i noe im not blogging often anymore.i dont have the mood to blog anymore.in fact i feel like discontinuing my story.feels aimless.

sigh.gonna go study. yippee. another point in my life which i feel..........................................

forget it.

Fairytopia Chap 2

So anyway.hughton was really upset la you know. He didnt want to fall in love with April. I mean come on, they grew up together. He knew everything there was to know about her. She was just soooo wrong for him. BUt. Heart and Mind. STrugglee. Guess who won? yup.

so anyway. SO april and hughton graduated from high school. April started to get serious with the other guy, lets name him..C. C was this like really cool upperclass Town Fairy.he had the looks, the money, the status. Which girl wouldnt want to date him? And Hughton was just this workingclass Country Fairy. Sure he had the muscles.=p but.................... yea.

Hughton was struggling whether he was going to confess to April. It was so hard. He knew April would be torn apart if she knew he loved her. Hughton didnt want to tear April apart. Besides, he was afraid this would affect their friendship. Hughton didnt want anything to ruin their friendship. But it was so painful for him to see April going out with C, always laughing with C, holding hands with C............. He wanted to be C. He was so jealous. But he knew he could never match C's standards. He kept it all inside. It tore him to pieces.

And you know wat? C had a dark secret.No one knew about it. Only Hughton knew. It wasn't on purpose that he found out. Hughton accidentally walked in on C doing the dark deed. After that, Hughton hated C with a passion. Hated that C had April but that C did evil. Hughton was never jealous of C anymore after that. But C knew that Hughton would never tell on him. C knew Hughton loved April. C knew Hughton would never do anything on purpose to break April's heart. But the main reason? Hughton didnt have proof. The upperclass fairy's word against the lowerclass fairy's? No one would believe Hughton. Hughton understood that. And because of that. He hated C all the more for it.

then one day, april runs/flies like the wind to Hughton's house. She tells him she's engaged to marry C and that both her parents approve. April is beaming and smiling oh so happily.She starts telling him all about the wedding plans.Then. She sees Hughton's dark black face and she falters. She demands why Hughton isnt more happy for her. Hughton opens, then closes his mouth again. The He opens his mouth............................................


Yea.thats it for nw. =p more later.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

=p

being crazy.

OWW

i have an ulser.really big one too. it hurts. hurts.hurts. im not in a writing mood thus im not gonna continue the story.sigh. go check out lily's story la. its good. =p haha.

MY ULSER hurts. argh.so annoyed.

im annoyed with u and u and u. feels like im more impatient than usual these days. i will snap at u.seriously. BARKS. dont make me bite u. sigh.

i should go study. ppl. exam schedule will come out this coming mon.i love pn. hun.she rocks cuz she's so patient with us. PLUS she gave us a sneak preview to our exam schedule.

so briefly:

19/9 PA 2

22/9 Eng 1

23/9 Bio 2, Bc 1

24/9 Bio 1, BM 2

25/9 Chm 2

26/9 PA 1, AM 2

haha.the first week.then break for raya lo.. =p ahaha. anyway.i only copied the subjects that are relevant to me. =p hehe.but em EST 1 will be this week too i think.just not sure wat date it is. so cheers u guys.but the schedule isnt official.but most likely it will be like this. =p sigh. im gonna screw accounts this time around.

yea.thats it.dont feel good today.

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Fairytopia Chapter 1

Once upon a time, in a land far far away, with plenty of green trees and rivers i might add, there was a place called Fairytopia. =p Yes. I am sure all of you can guess by its name that faires lived in this place. Well, there were many fairies. Rich fairies, poor fairies, fat fairies, thin fairies. You name it, this place had them all. This place was ruled by the King and Queen Fairy. (this part isnt really important but im mentioning it anyway =p) So the king and queen lived in a big big castle and they tried to be fair as they ruled this country.

They had ONE big problem. the fairies in this country didnt have flowers. Surprise surprise. Wait, let me rectify what i said. They had flowers.the flowers just didnt grow well. They died pretty quickly. So, the flowers were dying out and faced extinction. the fairies were pretty upset at this cuz fairies loved flowers. they LOVED flowers. =p they NEED flowers. so.the king ang queen were basically trying to find a way to solve this problem la. bla bla bla. EM PAUSE. did i mention that the fairies in this story dont have magic?yup.all they hav is wings. pretty fairy wings.yes i know.this story is getting lamer by the minute.DONt read lo. Anyway...

BUT im getting ahead of myself. that 2 paragraphs should be the prologue la. now here is the real chapter 1...

Ok.so in this place. like i said. many types of fairies la. OK. so right now.im gonna divide Fairytopia into 2 parts. 1 part is the countryside.and the other part is like the city la. So imagine the countryside surrounding one square blob(the city) and u've got Fairytopia. k?

anyway.in the countryside,( the fairies hu live in the countryside are obviously the poorer fairies la) there was a boy and a girl. haha.yes. boy and a girl.they were neighbours. lived next to each other with their parents and all. So, this boy and girl grew up together.ok.i am gonna give them names.hmm...the boy shall be named......Hughton =p i know.funny name.whatever. My story, My Names. and the girl will be called.....er.April. =p ok. April. so.Hughton and April were like best frens since they were young.and they played together.laughed together.do whatever little kids do la. so....

They GREW up.they went to Fairy school together, blah blah.and they both liked other fairies.dated other fairies.but through it all.they remained best friends. and den. ONE DAY, fairy prom came. Okay. Fairy prom is a big deal. Big deal. so they both already had dates and all. so they both went together with their dates to the prom. blah blah. but den. Hughton asked April for a dance. and April obliged.best fren factor and all. And it was during that dance.that Hughton realised he loved April. =p but the thing is.for April, it was just a dance. Just a dance. But for Hughton, imagine a bit la. u dancing halfway, suddenly light shine upon ur dance partner's face, and u realised u love ur dance partner and at the end of the dance she just goes. 'Im tired. Lets go sit.' So for Hughton. It was plain torture la the rest of the night, just watching 'his' April dance with her date. =p

ok.end of chapter 1.

haha.im making up the story as i go along.nothing to do now.msn not working Agaain.no big surprise.see la.i'll continue the story the next time i feel like doing so.and the characters are NOT based on anyone.dont perasan. any similarities are purely coincidential. so yea. names also i just simply take.

b.

tagged by ST

i have a really really bad feeling that i like to do tags..=p

seriously. =p

so..........

The last person to tag you is?
Kai boon.ze chicken. sorry.learn from all the YE members liao..=p

What relationship of you with him/her?
best buddies.=p

You're 5 impression towards him/her.
a) likes japanese stuff
b) always wanna compete with me in class during exam time =p
c) skinny
d) good listener
e)nice to me =p

The most memorable thing that he/she has say to you.
i duno.maybe i noe la.but too confidential to put here. =p

If he/she becomes your lover, you will..
DO NOTHING.CUZ IT WILL NEVER HAPPEn. =P he's a good guy.but.not for me. =p

If he/she becomes your enemy, you will..
wont happen.we've never come near to it.

If he/she becomes your lover , he/she has to improve on..
em.again.wont happen.but i would probably like more humour.=p yes kb.smile more. =p

If he/she becomes your enemy , the reason is..
like i said.wont happen.if he backstabs me la.but den again i dont think he will.and i will hate anyone hu does that to me anyway.

The most desirable things to you to do to him/her is...
WAT?

How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
crazy?nuts?i dont noe.i must find out.=p haha.as would probably want to answer this for me.

The character for you for yourself is?
i duno..too many characters for me?i want to be like superman though.does that count? =p

On the contrary , the thing you hate about yourself is?
my impatience.seriously.i have no patience.

The most ideal person you want to be is?
someone like batman.=p no not really.no ideal la i guess.i rather be me.with all my random faults and all.jusst wana be able to change sometimes like jekyll and hyde.but i wouldnt turn into someone like hyde la.turn into someone like superman or spiderman. =p den change bak.cuz being a goody two shoes hero all the time is just boring.

For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them.
i havta follow st on this one.u guys rock too.=p

10 people to tag
1. sharon
2. lily
3. lie yang
4. jin yee
5. jing wei
6. josh
7. Nat
8.ru jun
9.becca c
10.yee aun

Who is no.2 having relationship with?
duno. =p

Is no.3 a female or a male?
Male..

If no.7 and no.10 be together would it be a good thing?
they're both girls.that says it all.

How about no.5 and 8.
again.both girls.

What is number 1 studying for?
how to become more green than she already is.=p hahaa.

When was the last time you have chat with them?
i duno.yesterday?

Is number 4 a single?
most likely.go ask him la.=p

ends tag here! =p

=)

yay.my dad brought me bak dvd's from thailand.sad thing is.he dint bring me bak my friends(as in the tv series.wat the heck were u thinking? =p)

=( sigh.......so looking forward toward it.but its ok.cuz exams are coming up anyway.in like 3 weeks.so actually wat i shud be doing now is studying.but. haha.guess where i am?

so.yea.short post la. alot of things i wanna say but dont wana say.

lol.

b.

happier.

i am happier right now. cuz. i think my dad's gonna bring me something really good from thailand.ahahaha.MUAHAHAHAHA.

AHAHAHA

hehehehehehehehe.feels slightly better. I LOVE COLOURS.

em. keke?

just wana say thx to somebody hu's kept me sane so far.u noe hu u are. =p

b.

Bak

haha.so i went to chris's church today.=p fun.not really.but i kept smiling alot.cuz it was i duno.stuff la. ahaha.and u noe wat.i actually enjoyed myself la.and we dint really stay up that late.watched 27 dresses again.and st and chris totally agree its a nice show.chris and ya dont think the guy is cute though.they prefer channing tatum.whereas me and st think the guy is cute but i dont like channing tatum that much.ahahha.

laughter.tears. laughing till tears pour out.

talking and discussing.

a night i wont forget la.

chris i hope this makes up for the last time thing.

im bak now.bak to where i was yesterday.

EMMMMMMMMMMOOOOOOO.

sigh.hates self.am causing own self destruction.

ST SLAPS B. HARD

WAKE UP!!!!!!

Nah she dint really slap me.but i could tell she wanted to. =p

reminds me of the best fren in 27 dresses. =o i really needed that la.

knocks head hard.hard.hard.hard.hard.

on another random note.i think im starting to like colours in my postings. =p

watever la.tomoro holiday.needs a break.

b.

btw dev.if u reading this.i really really really miss u right now.

chris's hse

am dashing off a quick post b4 heading over to chris's hse.st is late.im supposed to take her to chris's hse.but she late cuz she had dinner at this super slow restaurant.duno la.so im still waiting for her.

sigh on another note.my lousy messenger wont work.wont sign in.wont do anything i ask i to do.so i cant use my messenger.even my dad's comp one wont work.so lousy la.so annoyed. ARGH.

=( am slightly unhappy.cuz.only my close friends noe y.=( i hate feeling like this.but cant bring myself to pulls self out of depression.sigh.i'll be happy tonight.dunt wanna spoil chris's night. =p will bring myself to grin and laugh.and i'll enjoy it.in a way.plan to watch movies..tee hee. =p cant wait la.sigh.

i'll see wat happens la.blames self though i noe it was the right thing to do.wonders why i still feel like crap though.maybe cuz i.sigh.

im so emoing right now.haha.better end on a happier tone.

smiles happily

oo.almost forgot.today at dg su an juan did the washing feet thing that nat was talking about.it was kinda cool. =p su washed mine.and i washed shuk's. haha.dev if ur reading this i took a photo of shuk washing yew juan's. =p ehehe.i'll post it later.it was fun. made me think alot la. about alot of stuff.made me rethink things im doing in my life.

oops.bak to emo again.ahaha. oh yay.st's here.time to go.

b.

I got this from lily.

According to The Big Read, the average adult has only read 6 of the top 100 books on their list.

1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.

2) Italicise those you intend to read.

3) Underline the books you LOVE. (or just make the font bigger)

4) Reprint this list in your own blog so we can try and track down these people who've read 6 and force books upon them.

1. Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen

2. The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien

3. Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte

4. Harry Potter series - JK Rowling

5. To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee

6. The Bible

7. Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte

8. Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell

9. His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman

10.Great expectations-Charles Dickens

11.Little Women - Louisa M Alcott

12. Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy 13. Catch 22 - Joseph Heller

14. Complete Works of Shakespeare

15. Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier

16. The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien

17. Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks1

8. Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger

19. The Time Traveler's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger

20. Middlemarch - George Eliot

21. Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell

22. The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald

23. Bleak House - Charles Dicken

s24. War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy

25. The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams

26. Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh

27. Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky

28. Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck

29. Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll

30. The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame

31. Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy

32. David Copperfield - Charles Dickens

33. Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis

34. Emma - Jane Austen

35. Persuasion - Jane Austen

36. The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis

37. The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini

38. Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres

39. Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden

40. Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne

41. Animal Farm - George Orwell

42. The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown

43. One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez

44. A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving

45. The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins

46. Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery

47. Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy

48. The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood

49. Lord of the Flies - William Golding

50. Atonement - Ian McEwan

51. Life of Pi - Yann Martel

52. Dune - Frank Herbert

53. Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons

54. Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen

55. A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth

56. The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon

57. A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens

58. Brave New World - Aldous Huxley

59. The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon

60. Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez

61. Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck

62. Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov

63. The Secret History - Donna Tartt

64. The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold

65. Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas

66. On The Road - Jack Kerouac

67. Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy

68. Bridget Jones' Diary - Helen Fielding

69. Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie

70. Moby Dick - Herman Melville

71. Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens

72. Dracula - Bram Stoker

73. The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett

74. Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson

75. Ulysses - James Joyce

76. The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath

77. Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome

78. Germinal - Emile Zola

79. Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray

80. Possession - AS Byatt

81. A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens

82. Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell

83. The Color Purple - Alice Walker

84. The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro

85. Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert

86. A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry

87. Charlotte's Web - EB White

88. The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom

89. Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle

90. The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton

91. Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad

92. The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery

93. The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks

94. Watership Down - Richard Adams

95. A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole

96. A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute

97. The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas

98. Hamlet - William Shakespeare

99. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl

100. Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

i got this from lily.was free.and wanted to do this.i think i don't recognize half the books on this list.=p but it was fun.

sorry

sorry..i noe i said i will post the annual dinner photos here but..my internet not working properly la.i put up 3 den the thing keeps disconnecting so.nex time la.feel so lazy to post other stuff.

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Annual Dinner Photos

yes.i've been nagged to death already by now about the overdue annual dinner pics.so here u go su teng.take a real good look at wat u missed.muahaha. =p btw the pics are not in order. =p

the ballroom wen i first got there.me and kl were like super early.the first ones in fact.pfft.all due to him saying be there at 2 30 sharp!

me and lily
me and dennis
edrea and dennis
me and lie yang

kh trying to be funny

me whacking his head thus..he looks like that..oops i forgot..he always looks like that anyway.. =p ahh don't kill me!*runs*

mr formal emcee

lily + edrea

ms informal emcee + me

shu han!!! =p

sigh..feels so short..

haha su teng.me and kar purposely took this photo to show u wat a good time we're having.. =p

seniors..i feel tall here.. =p

form 3 juniors - ley kuan

ray aun

ee jay,me,andrew

form 2 juniors-zhi ying,me,aaron,hui xin. sorry guys if i spell ur names wrongly!

us girls. =p

ex 3A1-ians.

me and kb

mashed in the middle..thats kah lok. =p

edrea, dennis, me chris

ai shuen, me, michelle

me & chien wei(prettiest + sweetest gal there) =p

kh and the jules. =p

yea thats about it.weird thing is.today i upload photos like super fast.haha. nice. fond memories.

b.

in THailand

hey!im blogging from thailand.cuz hotel has free wifi.using dev's laptop. =p

having fun.nothing much to say.cept that coming bak tomoro. haha.and goin shopping tomoro!yippee. haha.

i might buy stuff for u guys.or i might not.depends on wat i see la.i WILL NOT BUY KEYCHAINS.seriously. lol. dont expect anything la. =p hehehe.

b.

NOOOOO

sigh..lee chong wei lost..so disappointed..=( haha..

on the other hand..prefects dinner was so much fun!!!!ahaha..=p smiles all around..i have photos..!will post later la i think..now too bz..cuz i still haven't finished packing yet..but im online blogging..muahaha..=p

oh..last nites worship concert rocked too! so fun! everythings fun! great start to the hols seriously.. =p

anyway..like i said..am in rush..just wanted to update..=p smiles again!

b.

CHONG WEI !

haha..ok normally i wont be excitted about badminton but i cant help it.CHONG WEI IS IN THE FINALS!LETS ALL HOPE HE GETS GOLD.=p haha.so hyper today. =p

tagged

crap.got tagged.so i guess im back here.first time being tagged actually lol. =p

Rules :
1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. Yes No tags back!!-

1 2345678910 11 12 13 14 15 - start!!

hmm.

1. i started blogging 2 months ago and already i love it.never running out of things to say. =p

2. loves my rubik's cube and the person hu gave it to me. =p

3. loves annoying sharon whether its teasing her.ridiculing her etc. she noes i nvr mean it.and thats y i keep doing it. =p

4. loves the song sempurna by andra and the backbone

5. thinks alot.likes to plan.

6. dislikes chinese.loves chemistry weirdly.

7. being tagged is hard.thinking of 15 weird things i do is harder.

8. likes red.anything to do with red.

9. i like animals.has a secret wish that like i'll have some super power that will enable all animals to love me. =p thus i'll be able to like hug lions and white tigers. =p

10. gets nice achey feelings wen i read books i love or watch a nice movie. su teng understands this. =p cant explain. =p

11. wants to see the world.travel alot in the future.

12. i love HOUSE the show.=p

13. am willing to watch chuck to teman sharon.

14. am really weird at times.can change mood immediately if something happens.

15. really love all my frens. especially a certain few.

haha..taggy time.it was not easy thinking.pfft.

1.sharon ( haha.)
2.lie yang
3. yew juan
4. wynne.
5. ru jun
6.nat k
7. hwee ling
8.josh.( in an attempt to revive ur blog. =p)
9.jing wei!
10. yoon leen

hehe.

set a record =p

haha.i've set another record.dint blog in erm. 5 days..!hahaha.dint even come online.nope dint touch comp at all.muahaha.everyone's breaking records this week.due to olympics. so i have to break my old record also. =p sigh.

am disappointed in someone.u liar.u lied to me.u played me.and u acted pissed at me for no damn reason.i could have accepted it if u immediately told me that u lied.but u dint.and instead i had to find out from someone else.im so damn disappointed.wasted my time trusting u.wasted all my efforts.i m so close to hating u if it weren't for the fact that....sigh.wont mention it.if ur reading this.i hope u noe im talking about U.

lalalala.am wasting time.hols starting.but im gonna go thailand! haha.not for fun.but i will be hanging with my frens.so it will be fun.confused? =p wont explain.

hm.watch 27 dresses yesterday.quite nice la.even the storyline is so normal.but it gave me a nice achey feeling.=p haha.

thats all. happy hols u all! i dont think i'll be blogging soon. =p

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time managment

time is like running.always running.never walking or crawling.except during chinese periods and chemistry tuition.these are the exceptions i guess. =p sigh.

dev is leaving nex nex nex week.and see.i get my DATES right.not like some ppl who thought my prefect dinner was a month ago.pfft.ok la.i'll miss ya. =p wont have someone to nudge and tease anymore.except for sharon.but thats different. =p i dont think u even noe hu she is. =p i hope u enjoy uk la.and get moving on.on u noe who.and other other stuff. =p

annual prefect dinner next sun.all the fuss over wat to wear.lol.its just one night.=p ahhh!AS giving me the stare.okok..its a big deal.=p hm.

yesterday out like the whole day.morning school.afternoon Oon Hui's house.night time sleep.=p cuz so tired.oon hui noes y.=p hahah.

hols coming up so fast.and after hols exams.so fast so fast.cant believe 2008 gonna be over so soon.no!!dont want!!wishes i had the ability to control time.sigh.but that if i had that ability.it would be such a heavy responsibility and burden.

eeps.nearly used lol.just scrolled up and saw i used it once already.thx to pn shanti i now have it burned in my brain that lol can also stand for lots of love.haha.bet that makes u think twice now doesnt it.hahaha.thats all.

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Dear blog

lol.am trying not to blog so often.its working.=p haha.

sigh..honestly.breaking dawn wasnt that wonderful la.but thats probably cuz SOME PPL SPOILED IT FOR ME BY TELLING ME SPOILERS.am kinda pissed with those ppl.so im not gonna spoil it for other ppl.pfft. cuz all i have to do is remember how pissed i was and its easy.

sigh.breaking dawn..sniffs.

=( not in the mood to blog.later.

BREAKING DAWN

hehe!i have it i have it! and thus im too lazy to post right now.am gonna go read it! muahahaha.MUAHAHAHA. especially to suteng. =p i will do my utmost best to not ruin it for u and i will zip my mouth shut and not tell u anything i read tomoro. unless of course i send it to u now.hmm.yea i should do that.so check ur email! =p haha.

b.

piano exam

oh wait.i almost forgot to blog about my piano exam which im sure li wei wants to noe.

ok first i was like praying the whole way there that it would be a guy examiner.

so yea.ok so when i got there.the first thing the registration person said to me was "i've been WAITING for you" and i was seriously freaked. and den she said i was NEXT. seriously.i was early summore. apparently the examiner is like very fast or something la. oh btw. I WAS THE LAST CANDIDATE FOR THE DAY. pfft.

so i went in.

Scales first.
G major both hands. easy peasy.
D major both hands. still ok.slipped a little.
F# melodic minor. (ok wait. before this right. the examiner dint tell me whether both hands or not.so i kept asking. so wen i asked both hands right?for this scale.the examiner sounded a little impatient.so i freaked.put my hands on F# and started pressing keys.seriously. i had no idea wat i was playing. den i like focused and was like oh im playing the correct scale. lol. )
staccato A major. ok la
contrary motion F# minor. ok i totally screwed this one up.i started wrong and just gave up.so i just move my hands up and down.lol.
em.double thirds C major left hand.easy.
chromatic. sigh.this is the worst. i played correctly all the way.but i ended on the wrong note! sigh.
appeggios sucked.seriously.but i always suck at this anyway.
and diminished 7th on D#. this one was ok too.

pieces.
first piece played all right at the beginning.slips in the middle. ended okay.
2nd piece beginning had a slip after that smooth sailing.
3rd piece sucked.seriously.sigh.

sight reading : ok la.

aural: i think was ok too. except the examiner played like super fast and i was kinda em wats happening?

the worst part was the examiner finished.looked at me with a smile and said dats it u can go. and i just stared blankly at him. den i was like ok thx. runs out of room now.

so dat was it la. =p really wanna pass..thats all im asking for.

p.s. wanted the movie rocks. i LOVE it. =p
p.p.s family camp rocks harder. one of the best.
p.p.p.s. dont wanna go bak to scul tomoro. =(

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this is dev posting on my blog cuz she wants to

hi! dev here. for those that dunno much about becca lemme tell you stuff bout her. ok. during movies, becca likes to predict what happens next, like in hellboy 2 she kept telling me stuff like "i bet he'll...." which annoyed me like crazy. so dont invite her to movies. also, if you wanna seriously piss her off, dirty her rubix cube. like the time i put salt all over it. she dint wanna talk to me for ages after it. yeah. and when people annoy her or when things dont go her own way she'll roll her eyes like no one else has seen. but despite all these totally obvious and irritating flaws, becca will always remain one of my bestest truest annoyingnest friends. ^^


P.S. this is becca. dev is just easily annoyed.ignore her.or maybe i just annoy her easily. =p besides she wont point out all my FLAWS if she dint care so much about me =p hahaha.

smiles

yup.at camp now. having fun.games were ok la.my team got last. =p haha. but we had lots of fun getting last. =p hahaha.

gonna go do stuff now with oon hui and shuk

oh wait i almost forgot. I NOE HOW TO SOLVE THE CUBE!! HAHAHAHAHAHA...yup.finished learning during this camp. so fun i can solve the cube so i keep messing it up and solving it again.but it gets boring after a while. =p but still. I CAN SOLVE THE CUBE.

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HOUSE!

i know i shouldnt have.but just spent the last two hours watching finish season 4 house with dad.=p sigh.so unexpected ending.house spoilers up ahead. dont read if u dont wanna noe.haha.

but seriously y amber..sigh..nvm.i just hope there's a season 5.house is so addictive.

and it doesnt hurt that jesse spencer is so hot. =p gotta love that accent. =p

haha. sighs.

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Stuff

Happy 19th Gor. YEs..i purposely mentioned ur age so that everyone will know how OLD ur becoming.haha.i hope u like ur present.

will be a busy weekend.cuz.going to perak for family camp.hehe.plan to have lots of fun.hehe.

sorry teng.our plan or rather my plan failed.cuz of unforseen circumstances. haha. yes.i hope u noe wat im talking about.dont miss me too much in scul tomoro. =p ahaha.

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Feeling Better

feeling better now. =p feeling happier too. feeling slightly embarassed.yew juan u noe why.haha.can't believe i did that.but im glad its u and not anyone else.=p hehe.and im definitely more careful now. =p haha. shhh. =p

sigh.school again tomoro.mondays.

see u all! oh and congrats to YE for doing a great job and making profit..=p can i buy a share?hehe.

Doesnt matter whats on the outside
its whats on the inside that counts
First impressions matter though
never let anyone tell u otherwise

i hope thats what i can live by day to day.

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SICK

feels so sick.sick.sick.wish i dint go school today.waste of time.could have stayed home and sleep instead.

sigh.not in a good mood.

had such a long day.so little rest.its no wonder im feeling sicker and sicker.argh.i hate being sick.

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This is not an irrevelant post!

haha..this is not irrelevant..its not..its NOT..cuz its my life..and if my life is relevant to u..den all my posts ARE relevant..no matter whether im just crapping or not..yes..i am talking especially to a certain someone..haha..=p

IM FORM Four..time is so fast..already more than half a year adi..ish..today me and lily and teng were discussing how OLD we are..seriously..cuz today we went to sri aman's installation..and we realized that this time next year we'll have retired..and sigh..i can't imagine leaving the board la..and another 6 months after we retire..it'll be time to leave CHS..i seriously believe i will cry den..haha..ok maybe not cry..but be super upset..i will really miss CHS..

also made me realize that we only have one year to change the board if we really want to improve it..ONE YEAR..and that doesnt include the hols..so give and take about only 8 months maybe?and we already wasted about one month..so..?there's so many plans..but are they being put into action?there's alot of talk..but are we actually walking the talk?hope todays meeting will really change things..i duno wats the ending since i dint actually stay throughout..so i wont say anything more..will find out tomoro..

a shoutout to ST..cheer up..i noe saying it is easy..but i really really hate seeing u like this..and God always has a plan remember?we discussed it that day..so..Try to forget la..just try..

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Another day

Time passes so fast la..sighs..i just want to pause time.

*PAUSE*

wait..its not working??the seconds are still ticking..argh..failure..time still moving on..sigh..i wish not for the first time that there could be more than 24 hours in a day..

so little time

I NEED MORE TIME..

i need to listen to my mind and not act on impulse..sigh..better think things out properly before doing stuff..really regret wat i did..=( i just really really despise u till i'll do anything as long as i am opposing u..i'll say anything as long as i can humiliate u..but then again..im still a coward..

=(

unhappiness overcomes me at this moment

Report Card Day

well..nothing much today..just..i had FUN..=p i noe i noe..ur not supposed to have fun on report card day..but i cant help it..i LIKE report card day..em..parts of it la..haha..u want to noe which parts?ASK ME..=p

super tired now..had to walk around so much just now..sigh..thats it la..too tired to blog much..

IM TIRED-B.

Im Bak!

yay..after two LONG days of not blogging..haha.. im back in action!woohoo..=p

reasons that i have not blogged include being bz bz bz bz bz bz bz bz for the past two days...yup..
sigh..from now on i have to blog less..cuz..my parents say im spending too much time online..but that i am always complaining that i have no time to do other stuff...so..i reALIZe i have to blog less..=(

yea..lately just too tired la..and now so many things coming up..sigh..
1.piano exam..which i am not ready for!i'll be so glad wen its over..am nervous already even though its till 2 weeks away..but 2 weeks is a short time!
2.report card day..actually its tomoro la..
3.family camp..nex week.this is the only thing im excited about
4.prefect stuff..have to do stuff..=p
and many many others la..

oh wait..i almost forgot..HAPPY BIRTHDAY AI SHUEN!!!and im sorry i forgot to bring ur cake..oops..=p dont worry..we'll celebrate tomoro..

and..i hope that my teacher will say nice things about me tomoro to my dad..=p haha..not that im naughty..=p

on another note..I DESPISE U!u @#$%^#$!@#$%^&*%@#%%$%..yea..u unfairshoetakingoffinclassfavouritsmshowing teacher..argh..stop picking on prefects..ur so perasan!u dont give ppl chances!u freakin im such an experienced teacher i noe how to tell when u dont bring books but somehow couldnt tell i didnt bring mine!ahaha..let me tell u i laughed at that so many times..in fact thinking about that has brought a smile to my face..and i feel better about wat happened today already..

yea..teachers..love some..hate some..anyway..gotta go..blog more later..i mean..i'll blog wenever i can..=p

released frustrations adi -B.